I am coming to learning something. Being a person and doing new things happens in a process. You may not like hearing this information and choose to ignore it. I get that. But it does not change this reality.

It is understandable, but that does change the fact that is how life works. I am in a very different place than I was last year, the year before, or even a few months ago. I think competence and comfort work the same way too. You think things are so hard and difficult then you just keep wading in the water, feeling, managing your life, going to bed, meeting people, having tough conversations, writing about it, and showing up. I would add to this, using my time more effectively and reading more, and I seem to end up somewhere. But it feels like I what I really doing is pulling things from the dark, slowly, in stages.

It helps to think of it in bigger terms. Like where I was last year, or a few years ago…Not the fact that my plan for the weekend was to work and I have a terrible cold and I have spent lots of time watching terrible and hilarious Peruvian family comedies.