So, I am really adaptable.. I have a lot of energy. I am an extrovert. I like people. I like challenges. I like new things. I am often in new situations. I can bounce around pretty well. I am good about saying yes.

What is also true is…

I seem to have a bandwidth for things. I hit my own limits. When I can’t explore. I have been unable to watch new TV shows. I watch specific seasons of shows I already love. I watch the same reruns over and over. I have still not listened to the new Neko Case album, and she is my favorite. I know it is brilliant.

I wonder if the glass inside of me that deals with managing new inputs gets overloaded. The water poured in starts running down the sides. I have noticed that in these moments, I want to be reminded of my mom. I want to feel my childhood again. I want to be cooking for long periods of time. I want to be alone.

I think I was was wrong about extroverts, mistakenly thinking that we have unlimited energy. This is not true. I thought bandwidth for new things can be unlimited. This is also not true for me. Perhaps it is simply something to know. Knowing how to carefully nourish yourself in new environments, like where I am sitting in Iquitos, is a big deal.