I am reminded today how much I fight my own energy levels. I get exhausted by things and then I get angry that I am tired. I don´t find lower levels of energy logical in myself and I can´t rationally justify feeling the way i do quickly. I assume that either I am higher level functional energy or something is wrong with me. This thinking makes me crazy, start ruminating, and makes it exponentially worse.

So, I was reminded by a friend the concept of surrender applies here. Anger with my own self when I am in (yet) another period of transition simply makes my life harder and is another document on a stack of items in my mind “to be managed”. Dealing with a new full time job takes time. I forget this very quickly. I am working on remembering this. So, I just need to be NICE. I need to be PATIENT. That is really hard to remember, sometimes.