Surfing

So, I am learning how to deal with, or perhaps surf, with my own energy. This topic comes up a lot. Away from a perfectionistic notion of operating, expecting endless energy, or pushing. I am over all of that. I need to rest. I need to focus. I have said this before. Maybe yesterday.

I have found when I am dealing with newness, once again, something has to go. Usually it is staying out late. It becomes really hard, if not impossible, to keep my eyes open. It also makes everything else harder. The rest of life gets harder when I am tired. So, if I allow it, and I go to bed, I deal better.

Eventually I can go out more again.